We have this whole world at our disposal. Why do we become so narrow minded and confine ourselves to own own little prisons; tell ourselves our hopes, our dreams are impossible.

We crush our own willpower, hurt ourselves. Why do some of us love others but hate ourselves. Maybe we need to focus on and start being nicer to ourselves first, if we want to be better people.

I know I have my own confidence issues at times, and question if people love me. I feel like I just at times am more than people can deal with, and it becomes this loop that's fed that only goes away until I weed through it myself. I feel such a sense of worth and determination to push forward when I feel supported by someone, solely someone that does it despite the fact they don't need to or are expected to, yet I seem to lose some of my enthusiasm when I lose that. I still have the power to continue, can keep my feet moving, but it makes it feel at times as if they aren't my own.

I know despite the lows I feel, and the insecurities I face, I'll be okay, and so will you. Stick in there, we all get down at times. Just don't forget under all the pain you feel and experiences you've wished you didn't experience, there's something stronger, and better times lie ahead, as long as you keep your head up.

Afterthought: I know I want love, and we all do after we've felt it for the first time, but why do I put all my worth in one person. I'm sick of it, fuck it, excuse my french. This worry is not who I am. I can love someone I can love myself. If they don't appreciate the love and consideration I try to put into being the best I can for them and myself, then they are the issue. I need to have confidence in myself.